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Captain Cassian Andor ([personal profile] captain_by_the_book) wrote in [personal profile] k2so 2017-12-05 11:32 pm (UTC)

text, later

I have dug around the network some more. Read more of your private conversations.

I guess I can't deny that he loves you.

I understand a little bit better now why you were so angry with me.

You don't hate me so much for who I am, but for who I am not. I'm sorry I'm not him.

It's strange for me, too. I had some time to calm down. I still don't know how to deal with this but you're not going to respond anyway. I'm just writing to you

I don't even know why.

Nothing makes sense. It's not easy waking up living the life of your enemy. Realizing you have the capability to be everything you hate and fight against. I lashed out at you though I was angry with myself. Is that something HE does, too? I'm curious. I want to know more about him, but I'm also afraid to find similarities.

I'm not him. That rebel and I shared the same DNA and maybe some backstory but that's it. I won't apologize for not being him. I woke up and realized some stranger should have been laying in bed next to me. I know I didn't handle it well. I don't know what I'm hoping for.

I guess I'm curious. I want to know where I went wrong. But I want to know about you, too. I just want to make sense of it all.

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