I have dug around the network some more. Read more of your private conversations.
I guess I can't deny that he loves you.
I understand a little bit better now why you were so angry with me.
You don't hate me so much for who I am, but for who I am not. I'm sorry I'm not him.
It's strange for me, too. I had some time to calm down. I still don't know how to deal with this but you're not going to respond anyway. I'm just writing to you
I don't even know why.
Nothing makes sense. It's not easy waking up living the life of your enemy. Realizing you have the capability to be everything you hate and fight against. I lashed out at you though I was angry with myself. Is that something HE does, too? I'm curious. I want to know more about him, but I'm also afraid to find similarities.
I'm not him. That rebel and I shared the same DNA and maybe some backstory but that's it. I won't apologize for not being him. I woke up and realized some stranger should have been laying in bed next to me. I know I didn't handle it well. I don't know what I'm hoping for.
I guess I'm curious. I want to know where I went wrong. But I want to know about you, too. I just want to make sense of it all.
You're right, I wouldn't believe you if you apologized. I know better than to trust Imperials. You're all calm words and sweet nothing but that only last until you have what you want.
Do you realize that the ISB and the Empire as a whole kills innocent people? Destroys planets and gains powers through terror? All that is fine by you?
The Attleton Guardian's office is not weakened. I am here now and protecting the city is now my duty.
Please, do not talk about Cassian as if he's gone. [It's weird and upsetting.] But if you must know, yes, we fight form time to time but we always reach an agreement in the end.
But he is gone now. Maybe not forever, but for now he is gone. You are clinging to the past. That is sentiment which is not permitted in Imperial officers, or their property.
Your programming is flawed and clogged down by sentimentality. I wish you could see that the rebels have made you something lesser than what you were before.
The Empire does what is necessary. Sometimes small sacrifices are necessary to spare more lives.
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I guess I can't deny that he loves you.
I understand a little bit better now why you were so angry with me.
You don't hate me so much for who I am, but for who I am not. I'm sorry I'm not him.
It's strange for me, too. I had some time to calm down. I still don't know how to deal with this but you're not going to respond anyway. I'm just writing to you
I don't even know why.
Nothing makes sense. It's not easy waking up living the life of your enemy. Realizing you have the capability to be everything you hate and fight against. I lashed out at you though I was angry with myself. Is that something HE does, too? I'm curious. I want to know more about him, but I'm also afraid to find similarities.
I'm not him. That rebel and I shared the same DNA and maybe some backstory but that's it. I won't apologize for not being him. I woke up and realized some stranger should have been laying in bed next to me. I know I didn't handle it well. I don't know what I'm hoping for.
I guess I'm curious. I want to know where I went wrong. But I want to know about you, too. I just want to make sense of it all.
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Do you realize that the ISB and the Empire as a whole kills innocent people? Destroys planets and gains powers through terror? All that is fine by you?
The Attleton Guardian's office is not weakened. I am here now and protecting the city is now my duty.
Please, do not talk about Cassian as if he's gone. [It's weird and upsetting.] But if you must know, yes, we fight form time to time but we always reach an agreement in the end.
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Your programming is flawed and clogged down by sentimentality. I wish you could see that the rebels have made you something lesser than what you were before.
The Empire does what is necessary. Sometimes small sacrifices are necessary to spare more lives.