[The discussion is of a serious matter but, much like Cassian, Kay feels content and at ease. He knows there's no one else but Cassian he could voice this concerns to and not be dismissed or ignored. Other humans might even have gotten offended or wary. But not Cassian, never him. He sees him as his equal and shows it when it matters most.]
I love you. [It's earnest and sincere and perhaps a bit out of the blue but Kay needed to say it.] And I'd like this same happiness for others like me.
[ It shouldn't come as a surprise, he knows that Kay loves him but when he says it, it still hits Cassian like a sledgehammer. But a good sledgehammer, if there's such a thing. There is. He's feeling it right now, he's looking it, too, as he twists to face him, all wide dark eyes full of wonder. Cassian catches Kay's hand again and interlaces their fingers. ]
You... [ He presses his forehead to Kay's. Cassian exhales slowly, eyes closed. Yes. Yes, this is it. He knows it always deep down but then there are the moments when his heart beats so loud and just... ] I want to keep making you happy. Helping others will make you happy.
[He can't smile but the joy is still palpable in his voice. Cassian' fingers get a light squeeze back.]
Hm, look at us now. Who would have guessed life, or afterlife, would be like this?
[So fulfilling, so happy. With troubles and stressful situations still but those helped them too in a way, to keep their minds sharp and their senses trained.] With so many friends too. And talking about that, we got the permit for our home remodeling. I can start making the house bigger as soon as I have the construction materials.
We do need that. [ His voice is pitched to a soft murmur, sweet tones which are normally reserved for when he is cajoling people to trust him... or when it's just him and Kay, and it's all real. ] We have a large and ever growing family.
[ And what miracle is that? Back at home, Cassian had never thought of himself as a family man - he had been a loner, living life at the edges of his herd to better protect it. Now he was right in the middle of it. It was still terrifying when he let himself think about it.
Cassian tilts his head a little, a playful smile curling the corners of his lips upwards. ] You're very good to me. Building us a larger home. [ It was for Sonico and Demyx, too, of course, but... Well. It was sweet. ] This time we get to decorate the bedroom together, as a couple.
[Kay knows that tone of voice and sometimes it's still difficult for him to tell if it's sincere because Cassian is really good at his job. But not being able to tell doesn't mean he's not sure Cassian wouldn't use it with him. So he enjoys the murmurs and melts a little against the man's side, looking down at him.]
I can't get rid of you now so I might as well make sure that you enjoy your living space. [It's for the others too, of course, since that's one of the reasons why the house now feels so small but the fact remains. It's his home.]
Oh? Can we keep this bed, though? [Kay runs his fingers up Cassian's thigh.] Plenty of good memories go with it.
[ His breath hitches at the light touch. Oh. Ooooh. The smile he shoots Kay is nothing short of coy. ]
Very good memories... [ He leans in close to whisper into his "ear", never mind that's not how Kay's audials work, but it's a matter of principle anyway. Of principle and having an excuse to ever so casually mold himself against his lover. ] I especially like the ones that have you coming undone for me on this bed... you make the loveliest noises.
[ He's ever so trying to stifle his smirk. It's only fair. Kay has started it and he knows Cassian doesn't like to lose. ]
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[The discussion is of a serious matter but, much like Cassian, Kay feels content and at ease. He knows there's no one else but Cassian he could voice this concerns to and not be dismissed or ignored. Other humans might even have gotten offended or wary. But not Cassian, never him. He sees him as his equal and shows it when it matters most.]
I love you. [It's earnest and sincere and perhaps a bit out of the blue but Kay needed to say it.] And I'd like this same happiness for others like me.
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[ It shouldn't come as a surprise, he knows that Kay loves him but when he says it, it still hits Cassian like a sledgehammer. But a good sledgehammer, if there's such a thing. There is. He's feeling it right now, he's looking it, too, as he twists to face him, all wide dark eyes full of wonder. Cassian catches Kay's hand again and interlaces their fingers. ]
You... [ He presses his forehead to Kay's. Cassian exhales slowly, eyes closed. Yes. Yes, this is it. He knows it always deep down but then there are the moments when his heart beats so loud and just... ] I want to keep making you happy. Helping others will make you happy.
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Hm, look at us now. Who would have guessed life, or afterlife, would be like this?
[So fulfilling, so happy. With troubles and stressful situations still but those helped them too in a way, to keep their minds sharp and their senses trained.] With so many friends too. And talking about that, we got the permit for our home remodeling. I can start making the house bigger as soon as I have the construction materials.
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[ And what miracle is that? Back at home, Cassian had never thought of himself as a family man - he had been a loner, living life at the edges of his herd to better protect it. Now he was right in the middle of it. It was still terrifying when he let himself think about it.
Cassian tilts his head a little, a playful smile curling the corners of his lips upwards. ] You're very good to me. Building us a larger home. [ It was for Sonico and Demyx, too, of course, but... Well. It was sweet. ] This time we get to decorate the bedroom together, as a couple.
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I can't get rid of you now so I might as well make sure that you enjoy your living space. [It's for the others too, of course, since that's one of the reasons why the house now feels so small but the fact remains. It's his home.]
Oh? Can we keep this bed, though? [Kay runs his fingers up Cassian's thigh.] Plenty of good memories go with it.
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Very good memories... [ He leans in close to whisper into his "ear", never mind that's not how Kay's audials work, but it's a matter of principle anyway. Of principle and having an excuse to ever so casually mold himself against his lover. ] I especially like the ones that have you coming undone for me on this bed... you make the loveliest noises.
[ He's ever so trying to stifle his smirk. It's only fair. Kay has started it and he knows Cassian doesn't like to lose. ]